I8DT - At least the lock was fixed.

by **Samantha McManus** » Mon Dec 05, 2011 2:47 pm

"I'm not her. I don't need, or even want that out of you."

"I want a lover, not a worshipper."

by **Nailah Weaver** » Mon Dec 05, 2011 2:49 pm

"I know. I know! God damnit..."

by **Samantha McManus** » Mon Dec 05, 2011 2:50 pm

"Nailah, if I'm a goddess it's only because you showed me I could be. I'm never going to forget that."

by **Nailah Weaver** » Mon Dec 05, 2011 2:56 pm

"I know! I know! I know! You're something she couldn't even dream of being. Why can't I just move past that. She's fucking dead!" To her credit she doesn't cry, though replacing it with anger probably isn't the way to go either.

by **Samantha McManus** » Mon Dec 05, 2011 3:51 pm

"Because it's not that simple, aye?"

by **Nailah Weaver** » Mon Dec 05, 2011 3:56 pm

"Of course it's not. Bloody hell." she sighs.

by **Samantha McManus** » Mon Dec 05, 2011 4:09 pm

"What's easy is being the priestess of the Lady of Slaughter. What's hard is being Nailah Weaver."

by **Nailah Weaver** » Mon Dec 05, 2011 4:14 pm

"Isn't that the truth. But here I can't only be the former..."

by **Samantha McManus** » Mon Dec 05, 2011 4:21 pm

"And there are quite a few things about Nailah Weaver that I rather like. I don't think you can throw her away so easily."

by **Nailah Weaver** » Mon Dec 05, 2011 4:24 pm

"Not like I could if I wanted to. But god damn she's a fucking mess."

by **Samantha McManus** » Mon Dec 05, 2011 4:36 pm

"But really, is anyone expecting you to have it all together again so soon?"

by **Nailah Weaver** » Mon Dec 05, 2011 4:39 pm

"They better not or I really won't be able to guarantee for anything..."

by **Samantha McManus** » Mon Dec 05, 2011 5:14 pm

"I just hope you don't see it as a sign of weakness. It isn't."

by **Nailah Weaver** » Mon Dec 05, 2011 5:29 pm

"Part of me does, but that's beside the point, I guess."

by **Samantha McManus** » Mon Dec 05, 2011 5:37 pm

"Suppose you could ask what sort of servant you can be to her in this world if you can't live in it, aye?"

"But turn that around and think about it. Perhaps it's a bit like what I was talking about with my own situation."

"We were in a world where she shouts, where she's the apex predator because she needs to be."

"Now we're in a world where perhaps she whispers, but she hasn't abandoned you and she can still guide you."

by **Nailah Weaver** » Mon Dec 05, 2011 5:54 pm

"Look just..." she sighs. "I know all that. I still feel her and of course she doesn't... thirst for blood here but weakness still isn't a concept that fits in anywhere here. I feel like I'm being tested on... I don't even know... How well a servant of hers still fits into this world? But all of that doesn't even really matter cause the moment something randomly reminds me of 'that time I'm trying hard not to recall' things turn red and this isn't exactly something she discourages on principle because it's better than being reduced to a quivering mess. And the only advice the so-called professionals have is to not repress this crap so it's hard to see the fucking point."

by **Samantha McManus** » Mon Dec 05, 2011 6:08 pm

"So you won't make time to deal with it at a time of your choosing, so you end up dealing with it at a time of its choosing."

by **Nailah Weaver** » Mon Dec 05, 2011 6:14 pm

"I didn't say I'm not dealing with it!" she yells before catching herself. "Sorry, I... but I am, okay? Just... fuck this isn't exactly easy when you're being ground up between facing what happened and staying strong while looking to a future you're not even sure you want and that just seems to stretch out into a blurry mess of more and more of this."

by **Samantha McManus** » Mon Dec 05, 2011 6:16 pm

"I'm sorry. I'm... I'm not trying to make this harder on you."

by **Nailah Weaver** » Mon Dec 05, 2011 6:25 pm

"Look I'm seeing a shrink, I'm not abandoning anything, I'm trying to find some guidance in her, I listened to Nate. I'm doing what I can to deal with this but it doesn't happen everyday that you look down at yourself and see someone gleefully pull your lungs out of your splayed open chest and you just. Won't. Die." She looks pale and almost a little surprised that she mentioned and acknowledged something that happened during her stay with Harbinger.

by **Samantha McManus** » Mon Dec 05, 2011 6:34 pm

Samantha was taken aback by it as well, and after a breath all she could offer was a hand on Nailah's shoulder and a faint whisper.

"She was a monster."

by **Nailah Weaver** » Mon Dec 05, 2011 6:40 pm

"Yes, yes she was..." she whispers and with her hand on Nailah's shoulder Sam can feel her shaking. But there's almost a bit of relief in her voice at having managed to get that out almost on accident.

by **Samantha McManus** » Mon Dec 05, 2011 6:46 pm

"And I don't know what more I can do but be here for you. I wish I did, and I know it doesn't make up for that year in the least."

by **Nailah Weaver** » Mon Dec 05, 2011 6:55 pm

"You keep following me down the rabbit-hole. What else can I ask of you."

by **Samantha McManus** » Mon Dec 05, 2011 6:56 pm

"And gladly. It's warm, and there is cake." She teased feebly.

by **Nailah Weaver** » Tue Dec 06, 2011 3:17 am

She lets out a weak laugh. "You're terrible..."

by **Samantha McManus** » Tue Dec 06, 2011 3:20 am

"It was a long shot, I'll grant." She gave a tired chuckle and leaned back against the cushion.

"But last refuge of the damned, and whatnot."

by **Nailah Weaver** » Tue Dec 06, 2011 3:29 am

"Something like that..." she sighs, leaning against Sam. "And you know what's the worst part? Xavier's is dangerous. My parents were right." she says with an exagerrated groan.

by **Samantha McManus** » Tue Dec 06, 2011 3:32 am

"And even then they were talking about the one across the pond. This one wasn't even a glimmer in the Professor's eye yet."

"So I suppose we're finding new and novel ways to be dangerous."

by **Nailah Weaver** » Tue Dec 06, 2011 3:37 am

"Maybe leave that part out if you meet then." she chuckles weakly.

by **Samantha McManus** » Tue Dec 06, 2011 3:40 am

"Why yes, I've seduced your daughter into a life of advanced superheroing, with minor dabbling in antiheroing, but it's all just a hobby Mister Weaver, I swear to you."

by **Nailah Weaver** » Tue Dec 06, 2011 3:44 am

"Yeah, hobby. Cause nobody actually pays you for this shit." she says with a half-smile

by **Samantha McManus** » Tue Dec 06, 2011 3:46 am

"Living expenses when I was with the Avengers, but nobody is going to get rich doing it."

by **Nailah Weaver** » Tue Dec 06, 2011 3:55 am

"Right. Otherwise time-loops might actually be worth it."

by **Samantha McManus** » Tue Dec 06, 2011 3:57 am

"Now now, that was a wee bit villainous," she teased.

by **Nailah Weaver** » Tue Dec 06, 2011 3:59 am

"I dunno. I'm not seeing a whole lot of personal gain there. Except maybe a certain perverse satisfaction over the state we left the place in..."

by **Samantha McManus** » Tue Dec 06, 2011 4:01 am

"I more meant the profit motive. Supposed to be altruistic, or some rubbish."

"There was the thing Danny Rand and Luke Cage tried on and off, but it was always such an odd little venture."

by **Nailah Weaver** » Tue Dec 06, 2011 4:26 am

"Suppose it's not very heroic if you expect to be paid. Then you're just a glorified police officer."

by **Samantha McManus** » Tue Dec 06, 2011 11:20 am

"Thus, that most dreaded of things, the day job."

by **Nailah Weaver** » Tue Dec 06, 2011 2:25 pm

"Don't remind me..."

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